Here’s a little story time for you all. I was TERRIFIED to write about my mental health online for a long time. When I was on YouTube last year and into this year, I really wanted to broach the subject of mental health, especially after watching Maddie Bruce do it so, so well. It’s something I feel very passionately about, but the thought of expressing these views so publicly gave me such anxiety, that I decided not to pursue it on YouTube. Having people know my story, and judge me for it, just was too much. Yet here I am, writing all about mental health on my own little space on the internet where people actually read it, learn from it and (hopefully) like it.
So Megan, what changed?! Well, it’s simple. I wanted to create a space where people can come to learn about mental illness, a space where loved ones can come to be able to help those in their life with mental illness and, most importantly, a space where you know that you’re not alone, you are loved and it is worth it. I’ve been in the darkest of places and I’m still learning about mental health, but it’s with this knowledge that I’m hoping to help others. From the start, my aim has been that if I help at least one other person, then it’s all worth it.
I still find every single post frightening. The stigma that surrounds mental health is ridiculous, but each person that opens up about their own mental health, or that of their closest, breaks down so many barriers. For me, it’s all about opening up that conversation. If, by writing about mental health, I can have just one person go to their GP and ask for help, have a bath instead of cutting themselves, put down that bloody paracetamol, then I’ve done what I’ve aimed for. Mental health is scary enough as it is, we don’t need to create additional barriers around it.
There’s tonnes of fashion, beauty, fitness, lifestyle bloggers out there, they are insane, don’t get me wrong. But, the amount of mental health bloggers?! Nada. I’ve met so many more through #TalkMH hour (20:30GMT Thursday on Twitter) but prior to that, I barely knew of 5. I’m happy to put myself out there for the sake of others, we’re all a bit crazy in this world and it’s lovely to feel not so alone.
**If you or your loved one’s condition is critical, suicidal, or just very worrying, please call 999. You can also contact the Samaritans on 08457 909090 24 hours a day or Mind‘s infoline on 0300 123 3393 (Mon-Fri 9am-6pm)**