Hiya! How are you? I take it you’re reading this because you’re not having a great time right now. I’m not going to tell you it’s all going to get better because I’m not in the position to be lecturing anyone. What you’re going through right now is bloody difficult. It’s one of the most difficult things anyone can ever go through, the struggle with your own brain. Don’t let anyone ever belittle that.
Did you get out of bed today, out the house, have a shower? It’s okay if you didn’t, but if you did, well that’s bloody brilliant too. You still made it through and I’m so proud of you. You may feel like the loneliest person right now, but it’s okay, it’s not you, it’s just your illness, don’t worry.
Have you had a cup of tea, coffee, even water and had something to eat? That’s essential, go do that. Your mind doesn’t work very well if you haven’t had anything, and it’s not the devil (even though it may seem like it). You’ll function and feel a lot better for it, trust me. So, if you haven’t had anything, go make yourself something lovely and show me on Twitter (@megrrees). But beware, I have constant food envy so I might have to copy you.
What are you watching on Netflix at the moment, or if Netflix isn’t your thing, what album is ace? I strongly recommend something like The US Office if your mind isn’t working as wonderfully as you’d want it to right now – if you haven’t seen it, it’s a light hearted comedy, which isn’t difficult to get in to and you don’t really need to focus on it (it gives your mind that space to rest). Don’t let yourself listen to anything too sad, unless you really need a good old cry.
You are so strong. You contribute something to this mad world. You contribute something to someone else’s life and they would be lost without you around. You may not feel like that right now, but I assure you that it’s true. I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason and you, right now, reading this, have a reason to keep going. You may not know it now, but it will come apparent in the coming days/months/years. You need to keep fighting this horrible illness and I know you can.