They may have been there since young, watching over your every move, ready to pounce. They may be incident-related. Maybe it’s just an impulse, pulsating like the blood flowing through your veins. The darkness feels so warm and inviting. Waiting until you’re at your most vulnerable to lead you into a forest of eternal ‘tranquility’. To escape the turmoil of war you face inside your own head forevermore. To soothe the numbness you try to fix with cuts, alcohol, sex, food, exercise. To escape the loneliness that is inevitable. Without any other choice, in complete desperation for it to end.
But what if it is just you and your thoughts for eternity? But what if tomorrow grants every hope and dream? But what about those who love you? But what about those who are yet to love you? But what about all the things you’ll miss? But what about you?
You must survive, you can.
**If you or your loved one’s condition is critical, suicidal, or just very worrying, please call 999. You can also contact the Samaritans on 08457 909090 24 hours a day or Mind‘s infoline on 0300 123 3393 (Mon-Fri 9am-6pm)**