Well, 2017 was a year, wasn’t it! Honestly, I can’t believe how long it seemed to go on, yet also so quickly at the same time?! This year I’ll be turning 24, as in the age my mother was when she gave birth to me, so I’m preparing for a quarter life crisis to occur around July. As I said last year, I don’t believe in resolutions so to speak, rather hopes and dreams which would be pretty cool to accomplish.
- Work on myself. I’ve spent a lot of my life hating myself, so this is the year I work on me. I’m already in the process of getting appointments with the Brighton and Hove Wellbeing Centre and try and sort out the crap in my head from a more trauma based perspective as well as being on anti epileptic drugs, which coincidentally work as mood stabilisers, so fingers crossed I’ll be able to look back this time next year and be in recovery yet again!
- Work towards better mental and physical health. Tying into my previous point, I really want my mental health AND physical health to get so much better, especially compared to the latter part of 2017. This year holds surgery on my tonsils, progress in my treatment for epilepsy and PoTS as well as aforementioned, a lot more work with the community mental health team on my BPD and ED.
- Help more people. This is always my goal because if I can help just one person every day/week/month then that’s my job done and I couldn’t really ask for anymore than that!
- Blog more. I want to get the mojo I had in the earlier half of last year back. Maybe I’ll start small with a post once a week as a target, I guess in the latter part of 2017 I just didn’t really know how I fit into the mental health blogging community anymore, but I’m writing to help and I need to remember that is my focus rather than anything else!
- Travel as much as financially possible. I LOVE TRAVELLING! Harry and I have already looked at a few holidays and thought about city breaks. I’d love to visit places like Barcelona, Berlin, Stockholm, basically anywhere that Richard Ayoade has been with all his pals on Travel Man. Preferably, I would like to travel with Richard, but unfortunately I’m not cool enough.
- Settle down somewhere. When I moved to Brighton last September, I rushed into everything. I’m glad I did as it was the best decision of my life, however in 2018, I want to find a flat/home that I really love and feel comfortable in – I did NOT feel comfortable in the slightest in my last one. I just want to like the people I live with and have a happy home life!
- Read more. Last year, I set a target of 30 books to read and only managed 24. This year, I’m setting my target as 24 as I don’t want to overstretch myself and think it’s still pretty admiral effort!
- Continue to work at festivals over the summer. Working at festivals last year and the year before were honestly some of my highlights of my whole life. I met some of the greatest people who have turned into my best friends, saw some amazing acts live and partied like it was 1999. Fingers crossed I won’t break my leg this year, so I can attend even more festivals and maybe even hopefully see Arctic Monkeys live (please, please, please).
- Enjoy the little things. I need to remember this at all times because it keeps me going. ‘You have forever to be dead, but only a short time to live’ is a phrase that really helped me last year, and I know that you can’t just click your fingers and your mental health be fantastic again, but I think appreciation is something that really does help keep things on track.
- See the fireworks to enter 2019! Honestly, I don’t care which city I’m in, as long as I’m with people I love and get to enter into what will be my 25th year (quarter of a friggin century, what) watching the fireworks, then I’ll be the happiest girl on the planet.
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